This is just what I think about :')

This is just what I think about :') Dari semua yang kalian baca ya pasti nebaknya gue lagi gacin dan blablabla lah pastinya, bener kok. Gue ga berharap macem-macem pas bikin ini, tau banget emang semua udah lewat so I have to move on like what he did now. My tears doesn't means anything right now. I'm so glad if you found someone new, maybe she better so much than me.This is the best way :')Gue dianggep gila masa pas hari ini tiba-tiba ngomong kenceng banget "gimana ya kalo gue yang ngajak balikan?" pro-kontra semuanya lagian juga lagi pelajaran geografi dan Bu Susan denger wahaha -____-v ya buu.Susah ya buat lupain 6 bulan yang pernah dilewatin bareng-bareng. Bagi gue lo yang paling baik padahal semua temen gue udah bilang "dia tuh jahat sama lo poll", engga kali dia yang paling baik malahan. Gue aja udah diajarin banyak hal, dia juga ngertiin gue disaat banyak yang ga ngertiin gue. Apapun yang kalian bilang tentang dia jangan liat dari sisi negatifnya aja, liat deh positifnya banyak juga looh :')Kalo ditanya kangen? ya iyalah ngapain juga gue bo'ong hehehe tapi pasti bisa kok ngelewatin semuanya

this is what I feel

Our time together is just never quite enough even as much as you hurt me, there’s something about you that still draws me closer and it’s not letting me let you go.

You’re probably thinking I’ve forgotten all about you by now, but that’s far from it. I missed you every walking day and my heart still hurts, but I’m getting better. I continue to smile and go on without you.

Just because I know you not worth my tears doesn’t mean I’m going to stop crying

It sucks when you know that you need to let go but I can’t, because you’re still waiting for the impossible to happen.

But sometimes I think that I’m just a fool who’s willing to sit around and wait for you

I wish that I could move on, but can’t let go it’s too strong

I want to wear your sweatshirt to bed, watch scary movies with you, talk on the phone until sunrise, sneak out at night to look at the stars with you, kiss you in the rain, go on walks with you, laugh until I can’t breathe, hold hands, I want to fall hopelessly in love with you

When I said leave, but all I really want is you to stand outside my window, throwing pebbles screaming, I’m in love with you.

And so you asked how I was doing and I lied and said I was fine. I mean, life is okay but it would be better if you were mine.

And I will always think of you as someone that I love

But tell me…….

What am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re okay?

Oh yeah, I still can’t believe you found somebody new, but I wish you the best I guess

Eventhough I think you’re too fast move on from me and out with the one new I cried all night long hoping that you’ll texting message for me and said I MISS YOU

don't be rude man!!

3 words to say : I Hate You

i think you know that, so i hope you never ever come back into my life (like saying happy birthday to me or says sorry because blablabla) "telat woooy mading aja udah siap terbit"

LISTEN TO ME NOW

First : Remember when losers unite man, you’d be outnumbered. And you’ll lose anyway.. LOSER

• hahhaa maybe my real name is revenge

You think I forgot about you?
You think I forgot what you did do you?
Do yo really think I’ll erase you from my head and my heart so easy do you?
Don’t you really hope that I’ll forgive you
Coz all my life I’ve been waiting for you, I’ve been, I’ve been waiting to say this to you.
I’ll try my best to not to kill you.
I remember how you embarassed me, you make me feel small in front of everybody.
They were mocking, screamin, laughin at me.
I was dying coz my friends turned to my enemy.
Im strong now coz you failed to kill me.
I set my mind, I’ll make you see me.
I’ll now kill you and your life to be.
I’ll show you what a girl, that you have made me.

Special Thanks for ; GOD you gave me freedom of speech!

BLANK MOMENT

okeee gue gatau lagi mau gimana paraaah ya berantem terus lama lama capek banget
cerita sama siapa juga gatau harusnya sih sama Josephine Octo Listya tapi kita udah lama ga ketemu jadi ga sempet cerita deh gue

OH MYGOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!

tapi kayaknya gue bisa kok handel semuanya, everything gonna be alright

Hari pertama :

opung meninggal dan gue denger kabar itu dadakan pas paginya, sampe kebawa mimpi dan gue nangis di mimpi itu. bingung banget blank moment kejadian deh dari siang sampe malem akhirnya dan ternyata setelah gue capek kaya gitu mau sms terus telfon ujung"nya tetep loh berantem sampe ga bisa tidur (againandagain)

Hari kedua :

lagi nulis surat nih ceritanya, terus ditelfon 3x engga diangkat (gue pikirnya sih positif aja udah tidur) tapi sebelumnya marah" terus oke fine emang gue yang salah dan gue terima itu
dan ujung" cengeng lagi kan, ya emang gue kaya anak kecil banget ga bisa ngertiin dan blablabla
ga ngerti lagi deh, tadi udah cerita ke Ynnez dan positifnya sih gue harus ikutin aja maunya gimana

gue udah coba kasih perhatian lebih dari lain lain, kangen terus"an, yaah pengen ketemu terus kali tapi tetep aja negatif thinking dan ga percayanya ga pernah ilang dari gue
what should i do? should i give up or what else?

mending skip lah gue denger kaya gitu

mending skip lah gue denger kaya gitu
mending skip lah gue denger kaya gitu [Photo]kemaren (15 agustus 2009) jalan jalan ke plaza semanggi sama hipo (L)nonton orphan yang ga terlalu bagus sih tapi sadis gitu gue nontonnya juga buka tutup mata hhahahaha ternyata itu bukan anak kecil tapi anak kerdil masa umurnya 33 tahun trus pas make up nya dibersihin udah keriput iiih serem banget kaya nenek sihir pas di jalan tiba tiba ngomongin 'yang ga pernah mau gue denger lagi' omg engga lagi deh ya, hello kenapa masalah ada sama nyokap nyokap jamn sekarang? bentar deh mereka juga ga kenal gue sepenuhnya terus main judge seenak sesukanya gitu yaaa tau deh speechless gue mau bilang apa lagi. cukup hmmm 2 kali aja tuh ada cerita kaya gitu lagi ga mau lah gue capek sendiri kalo kejadian lagi dan ya mati rasanya bisa kambuh lagi pasti banget dan lebih parah kayaknyait's like dare me to movebut i can't do that for this time cause i can't let myself to let you go from my sideyou're the one now* maaf ya agak kasar gue sedih banget dan ga bisa cerita ke siapapun tentang ini