Thanks for being my love for half years, when you receive this letter I believe you might have selected a new girl friend and started enjoying your dating.
Every lovers needs to struggle a bit to get a boy friend or girl friend.
Dear A...... In order to recover your missing, I got another girl from next street & as you know this is my fourth love.
From all my past experiences I have learned a lot. When the love blossoms everyone starts writing love letters, you know very well… I have written many love letter to you , and writing a love letter in poetic way is not so easy nowadays
I have gone through much pain in my short life, but all seems to pale in comparison to this. I know it is pain like this that makes us human, that this is the pain that reminds us what its like to be happy. I thought i knew what it was like to miss you, but I had no idea.
On one hand, I hope I haunt you. I hope the words exchanged during late night conversations in your room echo in your ear and forever make you feel guilty for what you did to me. I hope the actions that took place in your room, where I sat, where you listened to my heart beat...I hope it stays with you and you look everywhere and find me in everything. The only reason I hope this is because this is how it is for me. Everything reminds me of you. I lay in my bed at school and remember how we laid in each other's arms. I sit at my computer and remember the long IM conversations. I look at my phone and remember how you eased my missing you for just a few moments with your stories of the day and listening intently to what I did that day. I recently received my phone bill...every single call to you. A bitter tangible reminder of us.
I know you are hurting. My friends have told me about conversations they have had with you. You are sad, and so do I. You are not over me, not ready to let me go, but I'm not. You want to know how I am, how I look, but don't want to hear about other men. We are both hurting so much together, yet so seperately.
I have not heard your voice since you told me that you have someone else and you said that you've hate me so much. It seems like a lifetime has passed since I have heard it. Each minute is torture. Each minute that passes without you, I die a little more.
I don't know how any girl can ever compare to you. Will any other man be in so much awe of me as you were? Will I ever have such chemistry and a love for life with another man?
Still, we are all baffled as to why you did this to me. The only thing we can come up with is that you were scared. You got scared of how serious things can become so quickly. I wish you weren't scared, but I can't do anything about it. I wish our love for each other was enough to keep us together until we are actually supposed to seperate. We both recognized that this might have been a mistake. I rest easily reading this quote over and over: "Don't worry about losing. If it is right, it happens - The Main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away. -John Steinbeck"
We were perfect, you're the perfect person I ever had in my life. It got away. But if it were a mistake, you have to realize it yourself. No matter how much I tell this to you, you will not realize it. I know you love me...and I always thought all you need is love. But I guess life is more complicated than that.
Actualy, I really want to send this letter before, but after know that you already have someone to love again, I undo my intentions
I miss you like hell, A.
Love,
Paula anabell
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